I'm being shaped.

No matter how old we get we never stop having experiences that shape who we are. This week has been one big fat shaping experience. I'm feeling stronger and more confident in my ability to make the right choice under extreme pressure but I'd be lying if I said I appreciate the experience. I'm not to that point yet. Not really sure if I ever will be. I don't think anyone should ever have to go through what I have this week but unfortunately I know that plenty of others do. I don't know any personally but I'm sure they are out there. I don't want to get into details on here but I found myself almost losing a close family member and then I found myself in a position of having to choose between doing what I knew was right for her and doing what she wanted in the moment. I had to risk one of the most important relationships in my life to stick to doing the right thing. It was terrible and hard. But I never wavered. Even though I wanted to. I even wanted to curl up in a ball and just give up. But I couldn't. She would never give up on me and I will never give up on her. It's the agreement that we've always had with each other. And we always will. It's slowly improving with each day and there is a long road ahead but rest assured that we will be on that road side by side every step of the way. And in the end, both of us will be better for it. That's what it's all about.